Wednesday, January 9, 2008

One week

Thank you all so much, I can't believe how many people were praying and thinking of Jack. I read every comment left on the last entry, and on my post on the Nest. I really took so much comfort from them. One of the things that's helping me is knowing that Jack touched so many people, and all those notes are proof to me. I look at them and think how one little sick baby will be remembered by people all over the world.

I want to write about Jack's last few days, but it is just too hard right now. I will say that the last hour I spent with Jack was the most special, incredible thing I've ever gone through. I feel so incredibly honored and blessed to have been there not only when he entered the world, but when he left it. He left with such grace, and peace, it too has given me some comfort.

He also made it clear he was ready to go. I feel like it was his last gift to us that he made the decision a little bit easier. It really wasn't much of a decision at all. He got progressively worse from Sunday to Monday.... by Tuesday evening, they had to sedate him and turn his vent all the way up to keep him from having more bad episodes where his heartrate dropped into the 50s, and his oxygen saturation dropped down at one point to 8 percent. They kept him comfortable and alive because I was not ready to let him go yet.

I'm not angry at God anymore, I made peace with him those last days I spent with Jack. A huge part of it is that, he has my baby now. I can't be angry with him. I have to have faith. I have to believe I will see Jack again.

I know Jack was here for a reason, and he was only meant to be here such a short time. I told PJ, Jack did more good and touched more people in less than 3 months than I have in 38 years. We need to spend the rest of our lives trying to catch up to him, though I don't think it's even possible.

Jack's funeral was amazing. So many people came to say goodbye to Jack, even some of the nurses from his time at St. Barnabas, which really touched PJ and I. We will never forget the nurses we met, both at St. B and at CHoP. They are the strongest, kindest women. So many of them told us how much they loved Jack , that they would hold a piece of him in their heart forever. They loved him and cared for him. They cried with us when we let him go.

Bloomfield made Jack an honorary firefighter. He had an honor guard standing next to his little casket. When they carried it out of the funeral home, the street out front was lined with fire engines, and a row of firefighters all standing at attention from one end of the street to the other. The procession had a police escort, blocking off Bloomfield Avenue through six towns. Two officers on motorcycles rode alongside the hearse, one on each side, with the fire engine leading the way. Everyone we passed stopped and looked, some made a sign of the cross, some even saluted. I wanted to yell Jack's name out the window, say this was my boy, he deserves all of this. My little cross eyed baby, who couldn't even breathe, never even left the hospital, got all this.

The priest at his funeral talked about how Jack had cracked open all our souls. I think he did. He opened them up, and we all have let so much in because of it. So much love, faith, hope. I hope it means we've let some out too. I hope we never let them close again. We have to keep them open for Jack. Don't let him fade away. Remember him, please. Remember him by being kind to each other, loving your family as much as you can. Being a good friend, a good person. Don't let little things upset you. Keep the perspective on life that I know Jack has given me. He fought so hard, he was so brave, he gave so much love without ever saying a word.

We chose a local cemetery for Jack, and I'm so glad. It's in my hometown, and close enough that I can walk over with the girls and we can visit him whenever we want. The day PJ and I went to pick out his plot, we were standing on the spot we chose, under a tree right near the road where children walk by and people walk their dogs, when PJ said, Meg, look!! He pointed to the street sign right across the road. The name of the street is Jackson Place. We couldn't believe it. We knew for sure then, it was the right place for our Jackson.

That Sunday before he died, when I walked in first thing in the morning to see him, he was laying in his crib, eyes wide open, staring at himself in the toy mirror Santa had given him. He was waving his little arms around, and his eyes were big as saucers. He looked so happy, this baby who couldn't smile, he was smiling. That is the moment I try to think of when I remember Jack. He did have joy, even with all his pain, his suffering, the tube down his throat, he still had joy.

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Melissa said...

What a beautiful tribute to your son! I discovered your blog a few weeks ago through the Nest and have been keeping updated with your story. Your strength, as well as little Jack's is such an inspiration. Your little guy did touch so many people and I'm glad you're able to find comfort in that. God Bless!!!

Barron Triplets said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, but am touched that your were able to find the good things that came from this. It was obvious that Jack touched many people in his short time with you. I can't say that I know what your going through but I am praying for you. God bless.

marree27 said...

Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am. I have goosebumps reading all that was done for Jack and how much he touched the lives of everyone. I've always read your blog, I've seen you back from the knot days (heck I even bit off your cake), and honestly your courage as well as your families courage and Jack's courage is astounding.

He touched my life, he made me realize that the little things I stress about really don't matter. May GOD bless little Jack and know that he is watching over you all from Heaven.

Love always,
Maria

Jessica said...

Your son will be in my heart forever. He truly touched my heart. My kids will be hugged stronger because of Jack. When they are fussy, I will be thankful, not frustrated. Thank you for sharing his amazing life with us.

AllieQBTB said...

Hearing the peace in your writing makes my heart feel lighter. Thank you for your words, what a wonderful tribute to your angel son. God bless you.

Nikkid330 said...

Megan, you have no idea how much you inspire me. I am in tears at my desk thinking of baby Jack. He will forever be in my heart. God Bless!

Sommer said...

Megan.. This past week must have been hard for you. I have been thinking of you and praying for you. Hoping you were ok. And you sound like your hanging in there.. You are AMAZING!

Jack is amazing! He must have loved the procession of the fire trucks and police escort.

He really was a special boy. Youre right.. he accomplished so much more in his little time here then i have in my lifetime,. thats proof that he was extraordinary!

Jack has helped me to cherish Lily even more then i did before, which is boggles my mind.

Jack has helped me to remember whats really important as we live our lives day after day. I really wish i could have met him and held him too. I love him and i havent even met him.

Im glad to have "met" you as well. Youre an inspiration to all of us as well!

Sending hugs

Liz said...

Megan, thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. Your words really touched my heart. I feel so honored to have met Jack. I am thinking about you all so much... Lots of Love & prayers to you all... xo Liz

mish2378 said...

what you wrote was so beautiful,you are an amazing person and each time I get upset about something I will always think of your strenth.

Jen said...

What a beautiful post. I cried when I read about the firefighters. Jack did deserve all that. And yes, Jack DID crack open my heart and soul. He's touched my life, that special little boy, and I'm living in the middle of the US and have never met any of you.
Just know that his love spread and has done wonders where we all live.
I am still praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

You are such a strong and beautiful woman. I'm so glad that you have found peace through such a tumultuous time. God is now caring for little Jack, and you are right about how many lives he has touched. I think about him often and hope for the best for you and your family.

Best,
Laura (penguingrrl), Michael, and Julia

laurenpetro said...

i don't know what else to say except you are the most amazing person.

julie said...

Megan I am so sorry for your loss but you are right it is amazing how much Jack touched the lives of so many in his short time here. I don't even know what to say to you, but you are such a positive person and I am glad that you can see the good out of the situation. That is so sweet that Jack is close by to you all and he always will be! God bless you and your family always.

Anonymous said...

God Bless you Megan and PJ. Jack will hold a special spot in our hearts forever. Thank you for sharing with us Jack's story. You are an amazing woman. Your family is always in our prayers and thoughts.

Nicole(mikeandnicole05)

Anonymous said...

Megan ... You are so eloquent! The funeral WAS amazing and the priest is correct - Jack definitely cracked open my soul! I think of him daily and he will always have a place in my heart. Love, Kristin

Anonymous said...

Megan,

Your words are SO beautiful. We all have learned so much from Jack, and thank you for reminding us to act the way he acted. So strong and serene.
You are such a wonderful person, wife, mom, and we are so lucky to have you all in our lives, even if it's virtual.

God truly is watching over you all, with Jack, and we are all blessed to be a part of it.

Andrea (pomps)

Anonymous said...

Megan you truly are the work of god. You are amazing and inspiring. I will pray that God continues to bless you and your family.
Tara
njbride2000t

Crystal said...

Wow Megan. That was absolutely beautiful. Gave me chills. I am so glad you wrote an update. I have been thinking about you daily.

Jack did touch soo many people. You had almost 500 comments on your last blog entry. Amazing. He was a special little boy.

I lost my mom in April. She was only 43. It is still hard to me. But one thing my husband said was that God takes good people early, because he wants them there. My mother in law shared this poem with me, and I actually read it at my mom's funeral. I hope you can find some comfort in it, as I have.

God's Garden

God looked around His garden
And He found an empty place
He then looked down upon the earth
And saw your precious face

He put His arms around you
And lifted you to rest;
God's Garden must be beautiful
He always takes the best.

He knew that you were suffering
He knew you were in pain
He knew you' d never ever
Get well on earth again.

So He closed your weary eyelids
And whispered " Peace be thine "
Then He took you up to Heaven
With Hands so gentle and kind.

It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God welcomed you home

I hope you continue to blog. Hope your little girls are doing well.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful entry Megan. I think of you, PJ, the girls and Jack everyday. You are so right that Jack touched more lives then many of us could ever hope to touch. God bless him and your family. I picture him the happiest baby boy in heaven.

Linda

Sandy said...

Megan, Jack has touched our life where i see things differently now. Being at his funeral and seeing all the firefighters, what a tribute to one little strong angel. I was so touched by it. God bless you, PJ the girls and little Jack. You're all in my prayers and i Thank Jack for opening up my heart the way i never thought it would. Now i Look at Dylon and tell him about Little Angel Jack that is watching above. he smiles when i say it, like he knows. Thank you for sharing his life with all of us, from the bottom of my heart. Hugs Sandy

heeda said...

Oh Megan, that's such a beautiful tribute to your won! Please know that I have been thinking of you and your family. I'm glad that you've been able to find some comfort in all of this.

(hugs)

Heidi (heida73)

Anonymous said...

Your words brought me to tears. God Bless you and your family.

jamie said...

Thank you so much for sharing this with us! You really are an inspiration to all of us! I admire your courage and strenght! You PJ Jack and the girls will all be in my prayers! Stay strong!!
-Jamie (beacbabe)

Anonymous said...

That was beautiful. God bless you and your family and I pray that you find peace. - Sandykins

Trpdmosgrl said...

Megan, I just wanted to let you know that your family will always be in my thoughts and prayers. Jack has changed our lives in so many ways along with You, PJ and the girls. Your strength is so admirable. What an amazing blessing Jack was. God Bless!

Anonymous said...

Megan – you amaze me with your strength, thank you for sharing this – I’m sure it was hard! The tribute Jack had was so nice, it brought me to tears what everyone did for him. Your family will continue to stay in my prayers.
Kristen (daisynj)

Jeffrey said...

What a beautiful tribute! Your truly are an amazing person. Like his mother, Jack was an amazing little boy for sure. You have no idea how many lives he has touched. It is truly amazing and touching. Heaven has an amazing little Angel that is smiling down on his family. I continue to keep you all in my prayers.
God Bless you all!

Melissa said...

Saturday was a beautiful tribute to a beautiful little baby boy. I will never forget Jack...even though I only met him for a brief time...he will live in my heart forever.

Jackie said...

Megan you are truly an incredible woman. What a beautifully written post. It is certainly true that Jack touched the souls of SO many people! Now he can look down and watch over you, PJ and the girls from a MUCH better place than here. God Bless.

Melissa said...

Megan..I have been so incredibly touched by your story. I've never met you or your family, but Jack has touched my heart---everyone's hearts! The overwhleming outpouring of support and love for you and your family shows how much Jack has impacted our lives. You are an amazing person..and I am inspired by your strength. God Bless you and little Jack...Heaven's new angel...

Rachel said...

Megan, I continue to pray for your family. I cannot begin to imagine what you have been through. I know that I will be a better person because of you, PJ, Jack, Katie and Charlotte. May God bless you and comfort you.

Anonymous said...

Megan-
What a beautiful tribute to your son. As little as he was Jack did open up many spirits and souls and touched everyone. You, PJ, the girls and Jack continue to be in my thoughts. You are one extremely strong family and you inspire me. God bless.
Amy (zorahangels)

Anonymous said...

God bless you all. Jack will never be forgotten. One day you'll get to tell your girls what an amazing brother he was, and always will be!

Leah said...

I will go home tonight and hug my daughter a little tighter. My prayers are with your family.

Alicia said...

megan what a beautiful touching entry. I don't have to tell you, you already know how Jack touched all of us. In my recent loss you will never know how much Jack has helped me heal, give me faith, truly touched my heart when i felt so hopeless. You are such an inspiration.

Rachel said...

Megan,

That was absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this. I have always been amazed by your faith. I know it waned at times, and there were times you lost it, but I am so happy for you that you are at peace. How very special his send off was...yes, he has absolutely touched us all. I will always pray for baby Jack and his amazing family. Your children are lucky to have you. I believe God selects us especially to take care of HIS babies until they come home. He sent Jack just for you. And you have shared his life and legacy with us. Thank you Megan. Love and peace to you and the family.

Godspeed Little Man!
Rachel (Pixie4199)

Kristen said...

Megan,
You are an inspiration to me- an amazingly strong inspirational woman!
God bless your family and Jack is always in my heart!
Kristen(Kristen81603)

Anonymous said...

oh megan - you are an amazing person. your faith and perspective on your life and life in genenral is truly admirable. i'm happy that you are comfortable with the decision. I know that that little angel named Jack is so happy & healthy now. all the best to you , PJ and your adorable little girls. Angela (&Frank)

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful post. Thank you so much for sharing it with all of us! I am sitting at my desk, at work, crying my eyes out! I guess I should've waited to check your blog when I got home...
I also cried when I read your post last Wednesday, I felt so much sorrow and sadness for you and your family. But, I think these tears today are more for joy and thankfulness for all the souls Jack opened and for the special tribute that the firefighters and your town gave to Baby Jack!
I have been praying for your family for weeks and I will continue to remember you and I will NEVER forget Jack! He definitely opened my soul here in Tennessee!

Anonymous said...

Your words and your faith as well as your amazing little boy have touched me in a way I cannot describe. You are truly an inspiration.

Trish (keltic14)

Anonymous said...

Megan,
Thank you so much for sharing this. Reading this entry brought tears to my eyes. Jack touched so many people and you're right, he was here for a reason. I feel blessed knowing there's another guardian angel in heaven looking down on this world. He was a very special boy and he will hold a place in everyone's heart that he touched.
May God bless you and your family.
-- Dana

CRS said...

Megan, I'm in tears hugging my baby. The story of Jack's last days is a beautiful one. Thank you for sharing it with us.
-SBF

Delilah said...

I am so happy to "hear" from you. I have been thinking of your family and your little boy so much this year. Jack has touched my life as well, and he will continue to do so for as long as I am on this earth. I have said this before, but your strength is immeasurable and so is your love. I hope to someday be as strong as you. Take care.

Anonymous said...

That is an amazing tribute to Jack. He touched so many lives, he definately changed mine. Every night when I am putting my baby to bed I find myself thinking of Jack, he has made me love my own child more then I could image. You are such an amazing person and your strength is an inspiration. Jack is an angel watching over, PJ, and your girls always.
God Bless!

Heather from ~Six Degrees To Make A Difference~ said...

Thank YOU for sharing Jack with all of us... Even though I never met him, I will never forget him or his story. He surely holds a special place in heaven! As always, you and your family are in my continued thoughts & prayers!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for writing this post. I'm sure it was difficult. Please know that many people have been thinking about and praying for your family, especially the past few days. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers.
I bet Jack's running around right now, getting many hugs and kisses from all of your friends and family members who have helped to welcome him to Heaven. I really believe that. I hope you can take comfort in the fact that he's at peace. Remember to talk to him every day. He'll be with you-I'm sure of that :-)

Amanda said...

I have no idea how you are holding up so well- What a remarkable tribute for your amazing son. I am glad you have found peace and I have faith that you will be reunited with Jack also!

Anna said...

That was a beautiful post! Jack really did touch my life and he will always be remembered. Your strength as well as Jack's is truely an inspiration. Thanks for sharing your little man with us!

Anonymous said...

Megan ~ You are the most inspirational person I have ever had the privilege to “know”. Please know that your son, your story, your struggle has left a mark on my heart forever. I will never forget Jack and he will never forget the loving and amazing family he has. My thoughts are with you, PJ, Charlotte and Katie always.
Regina
(turtle520)

Anonymous said...

God bless you, and PJ, and your family...but most of all, little Jack. Jack touched SO many lives in so many ways (mine included, even though we have never met).
You are an inspiration and an amazingly strong woman. I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Lori (Sophia409 on the Nest)

Anonymous said...

Megan,

Thank you for sharing this with us. Jack really did touch my heart and so many others in countless ways. My thoughts are continue to be with you and your family.
(knittygrl)

Anonymous said...

Wow, your description of his funeral was beautiful and sounds so honorable and powerful. It made me cry. I am so glad it brought you peace... he certainly deserved it.

I am trying to keep your words and Jack's memory as I go through my own struggles. Thank you for sharing with us. You are a strong woman, and I wish you continued peace as you deal with this loss.

Your daughers are lucky, indeed, to have you for their mom.

Jennifer said...

I can't express how deeply your sweet baby and your family have touched and inspired me. Thank you for sharing your story.

Allison (allison711) said...

Megan you are an amazing woman...so strong, such an example for all of us out there. I am bawling at my desk over how beautiful that entry is and what a perspective you have already so soon. God bless you and your family and most of all baby Jack.

c said...

Megan - I think you have touched more people than you think. Jack was incredible little boy who brought love and faith from all around the country. I think, as readers,friends and family, we all can't thank you enough for keeping us updated with your family. I can't imagine how hard it must have been to sit down and write about what was going on. And how hard it still is.

You have a very special family. I don't think any of us are ever going to forget Jack. I know he's happy with God now. And Jack's watching over you, PJ and your girls. God Bless!

Gillian said...

Megan, thank you so much for sharing these memories and feelings with us. I said to myself, "damn right!" when reading that Bloomfield made Jack an honorary firefighter, and the tribute they gave him. That is just beautiful.

I want you to know, as I'm sure many others of us feel, that Jack has really taught me something.. such an amzing little boy, and one whose strength and determination I will remember when I get down on MYSELF or think there's no where to turn. Thank you from bringing this child into MY life as well..

My thoughts continue to be with you, PJ, the girls and the rest of your families..

Dayna said...

I'm one of Rissa's friends...I have been praying for Jack (and for you all) every night. I am so deeply sad for you. God bless.

Anonymous said...

Megan,
Your post is written so beautifully, you also have taught so many people about love and strength. When the priest spoke about how jack cracked through our souls, i couldnt agree more, this tiny baby brought together so many people, made us all look at life differently.
God Bless you and your family,
Gina

momofdom said...

Megan,

I think we should be thanking you instead of you thanking us. You must be the most courageous woman I've ever met, and am glad to have had that opportunity at the shower. You inspire me daily to be a better person and a better mother.
I will never forget Jack because even though he's not with you on earth his spirit is still here reminding each and every one of us to be a better person and live life for every minute you can. I can bet neither of us will ever meet a human being who has inspired so many people more than your son has. He did his job well, and I'm sure God is very proud.
I have so much more to say, but my emotions are getting in the way of writing it coherently. So again, thank YOU Megan, thank YOU Jack, for showing me so much in such a short amount of time.

Anonymous said...

An amazing departure for an amazing little boy. I will think of him often and pray for your family. I pray for a lifetime of happniness for your DH and your little girls moving forward. I'm sure Jack will make sure of it.

Lisa said...

You are beautiful, Megan. Your words are so eloquent and, for as much as I know Jack did for you, you offer him a tribute that nobody, nobody else ever could. You will see him in Katie and Charlotte's eyes and you will smile and remember this little boy who changed you forever. I know I will, too. - Love to all of you!

cara said...

megan,
what a beautiful entry. the funeral services were really beautiful- I loved the homiiy about jack cracking open our souls- i think about that phrase every day. I pray for you and your family's continued peace and grace. There is another angel in heaven looking over you now.
Cara

~s*s~ said...

Megan, you are truly an amazing person and an inspiration to us all! I am so sorry for your loss and I really hope that your wish for everyone to do good for Jack's memory happens very often! I know I will try to be a better person in his name! =)

Katie said...

Jack has touched my heart and the heart of my mother. You are such an amazing woman. I will carry Jack's memory with me. Hearing of Jack's funeral brought tears to my eyes. He definitely touched the hearts of many, including those who never "met" him. I think he will be apart of all the "nesties" lives. God Bless.

Adrienne said...

Megan, Thank you so much for sharing your feelings and emotions with us. I can't even begin to imagine the pain that you and PJ are experiencing right now, but I want you to know that you all continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Jack has forever touched my heart and I know that he will be missed greatly.
MrsAdrienneT

Anonymous said...

You are such an incredibly strong person. I admire you and your husbands strength through all of this. Once again, I only "know" you through the nest but your little guy has touched my life. Take comfort in the thousands of lives he touched in such a short period of time. Your little girls will have an angel always looking over them. You are in our prayers.

Anonymous said...

Your strength and faith are amazing, you are a true inspiration. The tribute paid to Jack by Bloomfield must have been an incredible sight, so much honor and respect for your baby boy.

He'll be in my heart and thoughts forever.

God Bless you and your family.

(mrsktrobocop)

NanetLiz said...

Megan
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your loss with us. Little Jack did touch many lives and we are better for it.
Please continue to be strong and be sure that there are many of us nesties/friends who will forever remember you litlle angel Jackson.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing Jack with all of us, Megan.

Dyana said...

My husband and I have been following little Jack's story and we are just so touched by him. Such a brave little boy, we can and will learn from that. We will not forget him and if we are ever blessed with our own children, I'll remember little Jack and know that he is keeping an eye on us all. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

This Mom said...

Thank you so much for sharing what you could for now. Your boy has indeed touched so many hearts, as have you.

Anonymous said...

I told my 5 month old son all about baby Jack and your family. Every night when my son and I say our prayers, we ask God to watch over you and your family, and to hold baby Jack close. The vision of his funeral, with the truck lined streets, salutes, etc brought tears to my eyes. We will continue to pray for you, PJ, and the girls. Jackson Place, how perfect. God Bless!

Mrs.LB705 said...

Oh Megan, what a wonderful sentiment! Thank you, THANK YOU for letting so many of us in to what I can only imagine has been SUCH a difficult time in your life. I hope that sharing it has ever-so-slightly eased the burden you've shouldered.

What a wonderful ceremony and procession Jack had--and all so well-deserved! I wish I could've been there to pay my respects, but of course I understand your desire to keep it private. Know that you were all foremost on my mind on Saturday.

Jack continues to be in my thoughts and prayers, as do you, PJ, Katie and Charlotte.

Jack IS watching down on all of you, and will always be there, just hanging out with God and making sure his family is doing okay.

God Bless you Megan.

Love,
Linda

Sandy said...

I had tears reading this last update about your special baby boy. Please know you are in my thoughts each and every day as you are in many people's. I wish I had more to offer other than I'm sorry but I really am so so sorry.

Rikki said...

What a wonderful gift Jack was to you and to the world. I cannot even imagine how hard it would be to lose a child, but his story is beautiful, and he will never be forgotten. I am thankful that you have found peace with God and I know you are waiting the day when you will be with him again in Heaven.
Rikki

Anonymous said...

That was a wonderful triubute to such a wonderful little boy. Jack has touched my life and I will always think of him and your family. God Bless

LB said...

You are an amazing woman and it is obvious that your precious baby boy has touched innumerable lives. God bless your family!

emily said...

wow, what an amazing woman you are, and jack too. i have read this whole blog and it is very touching. my thoughts are with you and your family. thank you for sharing your story and opening my eyes. it really makes you change your priorities in your heart/relationships/family/work etc. you, my friend, are fabulous.

Flann said...

Hi there,

Tara/TSD from The Knot/Nest has been keeping some of us on the NEY board updated on your story and pointed us to this entry. I am so sorry for your loss. You're so strong and Jack was lucky to have parents like you and PJ in his short time, just as you were lucky to have him.

All the best to you, PJ, your girls, and Leroy.

Irishjulybride said...

Megan,
What an amazing post. You are truly inspirational. I had chills reading about what PJ's fellow fire fighters did for Jack. I hope that Jack will constantly look over you, PJ and the girls. He is a soul that will constantly be remembered. Such a gentle, sweet young boy. I feel blessed to have been touched by Jack. Being a teacher, I look at my students with more admiration than before knowing that each one has a blessing and a gift. It is truly amazing how one little soul can touch you and never having met him before. God bless you and your family.

Your fellow firefighter wifey friend,
Meg (Irish July Bride)

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog and have been, and continue to be, amazed by your strength. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. The best to you and your amazing family.
--A knottie.

Anonymous said...

Megan,
I am so proud of Jack. I don't know him, you, PJ- whatever. But I felt proud of him reading this. He deserved the solutes, the horses, the firetrucks, and the plot on the street named especially for him. I have been thinking about him so much, and thinking about Jack made me sincerely want to be good and kind and nice and everything you mentioned you wanted us to be when we remember Jack.

I cannot imagine what you have been feeling in these past few months. But you have gone through this with such amazing grace- you and PJ are truly an inspiration.
Lots of Love,
Jackie (bbzangel70j)

Brian & Debbie said...

What you wrote about your beautiful son is amazing. You are right when you say he touched so many people. But Megan, please realize YOU are also all of these things you said about Jack. YOU have touched so many people as well. Thank you so much for sharing your family's story. Please don't ever stop updating your blog.
-Debbie

Nicole said...

I came across your blog on the nest and I want to tell you how sorry I am for your loss, but also what an inspiration your family has been to me. Jack has touched so many lives and has left a legacy in his short time here. Although I have never met him, I will think of him often and he will always serve as a reminder of strength and kindness.
Thank you for sharing your story with us, you really are an inspiration.

Anonymous said...

Words escape me. While I am so saddened at the loss of your beautiful son, I admire your strength and I'm grateful that he got to be with you for the time that he had. Thank you so much for sharing this. I will keep you, your husband and your beautiful babies in my prayers!

Anonymous said...

Megan, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Your strength, grace, and love for your children is a true inspiration. Jack's strength and bravery, and your hope, will be with me daily, in both my head and my heart, as I begin my journey with IF. Thank you for sharing your son's life with us - you've given us a lesson we'll cherish.

Anonymous said...

Reading this post brought me to tears. I just want you to know that I still think about your Jack every night when I go to bed; your son will never be forgotten. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

Anonymous said...

I was introduced to your blog via the Knot/Nest, and work just a few blocks from CHOP -- please know that every times I pass by, I think of you and Jack. Please know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers, and that your peace and strength are truly inspring.

Kristi said...

I have been checking your blog several times a day waiting to hear about baby Jack. Somehow my favorites didn't refresh and I just heard your news today. I am so sorry the pain you and your family have been through. You all have been in my prayers. God Bless you all!

Anonymous said...

I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face. You are an incredibly strong woman, Megan. You're right - Jack did touch so many lives. He really was a lucky boy having so many people thinking about him, sending him prayers and vibes. I continue to think of him each day and send you, PJ and your families healing energy.

Sarah
oct11bride03

Anonymous said...

Megan,
I have followed your story and have been praying for you and your family. Your baby Jack touched my heart, too. Every time I hug my children now, I am reminded what precious gifts from God they are. I admire your faith and love for God, I know He is holding Jack and He is holdig you, too. I don't think I will ever stop praying for you and Jack.
God Bless You

Anonymous said...

I don't know you but I was thinking of your family this week. It sounds like you were able to truly find peace for yourself and Jack. I wish your family all the best.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for sharing your story with all of us about Jack, he has truly touched many lives! You are an amazingly strong woman and your children are blessed to have you as their mother! Keep on being strong!

casieleigh@yahoo.com said...

I also have a Baby Jack of my own. I was even more touched by your son's story because our sons shared a name.

I am more thankful today because of you and your Jack. I am more grateful today because of you and your Jack. I will forever be more empathetic, patient, and kind to others because of you and your Jack. I will be more loving and patient towards my Jack because of your Jack.

Keeping you all in our prayers. Enjoy your girls. . . they are beautiful.

Anonymous said...

I learned weeks ago from your blog not to let so much bother me- when the kids spill grape juice on the rug- hey it's really not so important in the big picture. I also hug and tell my kids I Love them at least twice a day. That will happen everyday thanks to Jack, because life can be short and we need to take hold of every minute. We live by a church and my daughter calls the statue of Mary and angel (don't know why) but we pray to the angel and include Jack and your family. Take care
Jill

Joanne said...

I just dont even know what to say. What an amazing tribute to Jack!! My husband is also a firefighter and I can appretiate the tribute that was given to him! Our heart breaks for you guys. But I know and want you to know that my niece Carmela was there to greet him so I am sure he has lots of friends to play with and I am also sure my cousin Frankie was there too and is probably already teaching him to play baseball. And just know that Jack will always be with you. Anytime he pops into your head, or you feel a breeze, its him saying Hi Mom!! And you know if you need anything just let the NJ Nesties know!
Joanne (JoJo79) & Alex

Kelly said...

I have never met you before, but have followed some of your story via girls from the nest. Your strength and grace are amazing. Not only has Jack touched my soul, but you have as well. I am so sorry that you have had to go through all of this. God bless you and your family.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss! I can not even imagine what you have gone through but this is obviously part of god's master plan. I will continue to pray for your family. Reading your story has really touched me and it is a great reminder of how life is too short to worry about the samll things! Jack is an inspiration to all even though he never saw the world past the hospital! What a great role to play in life! Thank you for sharing your story and may god give you the strength to make it through each day!

Hyperfertile Infertile said...

Megan, this entry is just beautiful. I am glad that Jack had such a special send off, and I truly do believe that he changed the lives and hearts of many people.

I know that I will always remember your little Jack. I told my kids about him, too. He will not be forgotten.

LeighAnn&Vinny said...

Meagan, you are such a gift writer. I have tears streaming down my face after reading this entry. I can only imagine what Bloomfield Ave was like. What a great way to honor to little Jack. You are right that Jack has touched each and everyone of us. Thank you for sharing him with us.
- LeighAnn&Vinny

Ariella said...

What a wonderful log that was. I am crying again.... Please know that Jack's life has touched my whole family. The place he opened in my heart and soul will never close.

Notwifezilla said...

Megan,
Reading about Jack's funeral brought tears to my eyes. He truly has touched so many in his short life. My continued thoughts and prayers go out to you, P.J., Katie, and Charlotte.
With all my love,
Jackie

leona said...

Jack will always be remembered. I think of him and your family often. I am so sorry for your loss. Your last post was so beautiful. May God continue blessing you and your family. Jack will forever be your angel that will be watching over you, PJ and your girls.

Leona

Anonymous said...

God Bless you Meagan - there is no other pain than that of losing your child. I don't even know you but what you have written is just beautiful. You seem to have been able to feel a little peace and comfort. I'm glad for that.Stay strong, and I am so sorry for your loss.

Craig, Julie & Sydney said...

We are continuing to pray for you and your family.

Collegegirl said...

Your baby Jack did touch the lives of so many. I continue to look for updates and am amazed with all of your strength! Jack had so many people in his corner that it seems unreal. I will continue to pray for you and your family. You are such a strong woman!
God Bless!!!

Anonymous said...

Megan, your stregnth is astounding and you write so beautifully. I have thought of Jack and your family non stop since I read the post of his passing, and I often think how amazing it is that I have never met you but cried for your little one. You have truly touched me in a way I will never forget. I will continue to keep you and Jack in my prayers. God Bless you and your family.
CT Knottie, Jenn

Anonymous said...

Megan, you are an amazing woman! You write so eloquently, I can hear the peace in your writing. I will continue to pray for you, PJ and the girls and also little Jack. You certainly have touched my soul and heart here in Pennsylvania!

Lotta said...

A life entirely filled with love, how wonderful. Jack will be watching over his family now. Hugs.

Rebecca said...

What a beautiful tribute to your son's amazing life. God Bless you and your family.

AmberZ said...

Megan, you and your family are in my prayers. I came across your blog on the Knot and I just want you to know that you are an amazing woman of strength. If I could be half as strong in my life, as you have been through this time I could only be so lucky. Jack was a beautiful baby boy and I can only imagine how beautiful he must be as an angel looking down over his family.

pam said...

your post brought me to tears again. you and your family has been in my thoughts so much in the past weeks. i'm happy that you have been able to find some comfort in this terrible time.

velmadinkley said...

You are SO strong! What amazing tributes were given for your wonderful boy. Still keeping you and your family in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful way to honor your son. His sisers have an angel in heaven looking out over them. You are such an inspiration.

Anonymous said...

I am crying. What a wonderful tribute to him, he was very special and will always be remembered. What an amazing honor he got. God Bless you and your famly, you will forever be in my thoughts and prayers.
Chelsm(the nest)

NoahAndZach'sMom said...

Your strength and grace in telling Jack's story are beyond amazing. Have you ever thought about writing a book about Jack? In telling his story, your words have already touched so many people. Just something for you to think about someday...

Noah and Zach's Mom (Multiples Board/CO Board)

Anonymous said...

Beautiful and touching... both you and Jack. I can hardly write with this lump in my throat. Everyone's saying it, and it's true -- you are an inspiration.

Courtney said...

I have thought of you and your family alot this week. He was a beautiful little boy and obviously very loved. He was one lucky little boy. Take care of yourself and your family.


A NH Nestie

Annie said...

This is so touching! Like many others here, I discovered your story through the nest. I cannot imagine what you are going through, but please know that there is never a moment when you are alone. We are all thinking of you and your family, and I know I will always remember little Jack.

--bunnybean

Gabbs said...

Again I am speechless. You and your family are still in my thoughts & prayers during this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Megan,
YOU ARE AMAZING! You brought my husband and me to tears. Your words are so perfectly beautiful. Not only is Jack an inspiration to us, but so are you!

My mother died almost two years ago, and I have still have anger over it, and she was in her seventies. You have inspired me to let it go. If you have let your anger go, then I must let mine go as well. Because what happened to my mother makes a whole more sense than what happened to Jack.

Thank you so much for sharing Jack's last moments with us. I know it was extremely personal, it was so generous of you to let us in.

Jack will never be forgotten!

Tara (tpquinn72)

njpjfan said...

I will light a candle at church on Sunday for Jack and another for you and your family.
God bless you and yours, and give the girls an extra hug tonight.

Anonymous said...

Jack has touched me and so have you. I am so glad that you are trusting in God to get through this time. Only he can provide a peace like what you described. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

carmeng said...

Megan I am still thinking about you and your family. You are all in my prayers. I am so touched (to the point of tears) by all that has happened. I have goosebumps from my head to my toes...little Jack will forever be in my heart. You and your family will always be in my thoughts and prayers.

I thank you for continuing to share your story.

Sarah said...

I am so sorry for your family's loss. Thank you for sharing your experience. The way you described his final hours and the services for him...I was touched! I'm sure he is watching out for you in heaven and will see you again one day!
Please hug and kiss those two beautiful girls for me!
You and your family are in my thoughts.

Patyrish said...

This is one of the most touching things I have ever read in my life.

When I read that Jack had passed I was so sad. I can only imagine the pain of watching him slowly slip away. I was touched to hear that he passed with such grace.

I believe with ALL my heart that Jacks was one of God's chosen ones sent here to do a job. Look at all the people he has touched. FOUR HUNDRED just from the signed guest book entries and I KNOW there are so many more who read that do not comment or who have heard of Jack or know of him. I have passed his story on myself. I know he touched thousands in ways you may never know.

The funeral sounds like it was BEAUTIFUL and when I read how grand it was it just brought me to tears. Little Jack deserved EVERY salute, fire truck and wave. He is one of my little hero's.

Rest in peace sweet Jack, you are missed and loved by more people than you will ever know.

Much love and many prayers.

lucky #2 said...

I promise we will honor your Jack in my family. What a beautiful funeral for a beautiful boy.

tbonegrl said...

My husband told me today you had written again in your blog, and that he had read it at work. He told me about the what the firefighters did for baby Jack.

My soul cracked open a little wider because of him, and because of you sharing his story. Thank you. Your words are beautiful.

Amber said...

What a beautiful tribute for a beautiful little boy. ((HUGS))

Anonymous said...

Of course he had joy....he has you for a mommy :)

Cristy (CT Nestie)

SaraAugy said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Jack was an amazing blessing to this world even though he was only here for a short time. God bless.

friend-sister-wife-mother said...

Megan,
What a touching entry. I almost feel like I know Jack even though I never met that brave little boy. I will try and think of all that Jack went and fought through when I get upset about the little things. You and PJ are very strong brave parents and Jack is very lucky to have had you both.
Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am, I am glad you have found peace and Jack has as well.

Heather

JennB said...

I only hope to ever has as much grace as you have shown through your journey with your children and through all of your struggles with your Jack (I have a Jack too and thank God for him everyday, as well as his baby brother, Finn). I learned of your blog through a Nest spin-off, and hope the you all find peace, as it sounds like you have to some extent. Your Jack was such a cute, sweet looking baby-I'm sure you'll make sure that his sisters never forget him. God bless you all

JennB said...

I only hope to ever has as much grace as you have shown through your journey with your children and through all of your struggles with your Jack (I have a Jack too and thank God for him everyday, as well as his baby brother, Finn). I learned of your blog through a Nest spin-off, and hope the you all find peace, as it sounds like you have to some extent. Your Jack was such a cute, sweet looking baby-I'm sure you'll make sure that his sisters never forget him. God bless you all

Anonymous said...

First of all, I want to offer my sympathy for you and your family. As a new mom myself, your story has touched a special place in my heart. I had been following your story, and was deeply saddened to hear of his passing. I think about him often as I'm sure many will. And you are right, we need to remember, and treat each other with love and repsect.

God will be watching out for him.

Amy said...

Megan, thank you for sharing your story, and a piece of your son, with us. You are right, he brought out the good in so many people, and he though he left you too soon, he leaves behind an incredible legacy of love, peace, and hope. May God bless Jack and keep him until you and PJ are reunited with him. He will forever be an angel watching over his parents and his sisters.

Amy

Heather and Brett said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I have read all your blog comments. I have been thinking and praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

I know peace will be a long process... but know that others are thinking of you and loving Jack through you. Thank you for loving Jack.

Anonymous said...

I cried reading this entry. I just want you to know that he will not be forgotten. I have been checking your blog every night before I go to sleep hoping for some kind of an update. I am glad that you have found some peace in all of this. Once again, I wish you and your family all of the best during this difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Your posts gave me chills and I know that Jack has touched so many people, more than most of us ever will and that is amazing! He was an amazing little boy who will surely be missed. Stay strong and continue to remember him how he was on that last Sunday, beautiful.

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful tribute to your son and your family. Thank you for sharing your story. You have amazing strength and outlook on life. You are a true inspiration. God bless

Anonymous said...

Jack will be forever remembered, and he touched so many people. You too have touched many people by sharing your story, you are such a strong woman! Please know that you are in my thoughts continuously, as is your family. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Amy (amym107)

nafe said...

You are an incredibly beautiful person, thank you for your uplifting post and sharing your story. It is evident that your gracefulness was passed on to Jack and that he did indeed touch so many lives.

God bless Jack.
God bless you & PJ.
God bless Katie & Charlotte.

Anonymous said...

What an amazing tribute to your son! You and your family, and especially your little boy, have touched so many hearts. I am truly humbled by your strength and your faith.

Anonymous said...

Tears are running down my face. What a blessed memory to have of your son. God will take care of him, and he will always be looking down on you, PJ, and the girls, watching out for you. Jack's story will make us all appreciate our lives more. God bless you and your family!
Meghann

Anonymous said...

I just cried reading your post of the wonderful celebration of little Jack's life. I love that Jack is now an offical member of the brotherhood, and he recieved the tribute he truly deserved.

I wanted to point you to the website
http://babyangelpics.com/index.php.
If you want to, you can take a few of the pictures of him in the hospital and have all the tubes removed. It is a free service. I know a few people who have used it and it really helps them.

Kimberly and the GA Guinn Trips
www.guinnfamilyhome.com

Lynn said...

There are no words to express how sorry I am for your loss.

Casey's trio said...

I cannot tell you how moved I was by reading this post. You are such a strong woman. Thank you for sharing your son with all of us.

Anonymous said...

This had me in tears but smiling thinking of the beautiful tribute to baby Jack! The story you told of Jack's burial plot is such a powerful testament that God has Jack with him and is taking good care of him- and even more, that they both will be taking care of your whole family from now on. You all remain in my prayers as always...

Becky (octoberlove1002)

Jen&Mickey said...

Megan, you continue to inspire me to be a better person. Baby Jack brought a lot of people together. He joined this community and made it stronger. I will continue to keep you and you family in my thoughts.
Jen (jennypenny*)

Kimberly said...

Oh, Megan. I don't know you personally, but I have been following your blog for months now (even prior to the babies' birth.)I cannot begin to imagine what you are feeling.

I cried large, big tears when I read today's entry. I cannot image what you have gone through, nor can I anticipate what is in front of you. I am not a religious person, but I have been, and will continue, praying for you and your family. You continue to amaze me with your strength and devotion.

God Bless.

Kim

Jessica said...

Megan, I was so honored to be there and I really just kept thinking the entire time HOW MUCH your son affected so many people. ALL over the place. He was and always WILL be special and no one will forget him! I am amazed at your strength and hope that you and PJ and the girls always take solace in the fact that your son and their brother was a very special little person that so many people loved. Jack made me look at being a mother in such a different way, and I want to thank you both for that. Love, Jessica Barrague

Anonymous said...

Megan~ you are an amazing and strong woman! I think you're right and Jack was a gift for everyone. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Ginny

Anonymous said...

Megan-
You, PJ and the babies have been in our thoughts and prayers every single day. It sounds like Jack had the finest send off that he so well deserved.
May your memories of Jack bring you Peace and comfort.
Your words are so eloquently written. God Bless all of you.
Shannon (Shannonkm7)

Anonymous said...

Megan, What a wonderful tribute to Jack. He touched the lives of so many people and will always be remembered. You are such a strong, amazing person. You will see Jack again and will always have a guardian angel looking over you and your family.

Molly said...

Oh Megan, that is such a beautiful entry... it really touched me.
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. Jack's journey touched so many people, including myself. Thank you for sharing this with the world.
I was so touched by the tribute given to him by all of the firefighters.... a strong fighter like Jack truly deserved it.
Know that Jack is in God's hands and you WILL see him again. Charlotte & Katie are so lucky to have such a strong Mommy like you.
God Bless and ((HUGS))
~Molly

Alyson said...

What a wonderful entry. May Jack's time on earth continue to bring good to all those he touched, in person and virtually. RIP Mrs.Aly&Mr.Jim

Amanda said...

You wrote the most touching entry I have ever read. You are such a strong woman! Jack definitely did accomplish more in his little life than most of us can ever dream of doing. I am sure he is one of God's special angels up there and that he will always watch over you and your family.

He has certainly touched me. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
God bless you!

Amanda (Previous nestie)

Evelyn said...

I am so sorry for your loss Meg. My prayers are with you and your family. May god bless you guys, keep being the strong woman I know you are.

With love,
Evelyn Camacho

Michelle said...

I am so sorry for your loss of Jack and I admire your strength through it all. Please know that you, your family and those precious girls are in my prayers. You will be with Jack again some day! Big hugs and God Bless you!

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog and wanted to say I'm so sorry for your loss and also that what your hometown did was great and beautiful tribute for your very special Angel. Stay strong and our thoughts and prayers are with you & your family.

Jenna said...

Jack had joy because he knew- from the moment he was born, that he was loved beyond words, beyond comprehension. And he left this world knowing he had left it a better place, just by having been in it.

May he rest in peace for eternity, and always bring you peace, Megan and PJ. God bless you.

nicole (a nestie) said...

Megan, you are truly one of the most incredible people I have ever encountered in my life. I feel so blessed to have 'known' Jack and to share in the goodness that his all too short life has brought out in people. Thank you so much for sharing your baby and your story with all of us. I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

You and your family will remain in my thoughts and prayers. You are an inspiration to all.
Blythe
bdciml

Anonymous said...

This is such a beautiful tribute to your son. I feel honored to have attended the mass for Jack. It was a beautiful service for a special little boy. You are in our constant thoughts and prayers.

Michelle

Anonymous said...

Meg -
There is nothing to compare with the loss of a child, and only those
who have known such a tragedy can truly understand your sorrow.

Though words may be meaningless right now, may you find some comfort in the love and concern
that surround you from so many who deeply care.

I am so so sorry I didn't attend Jack's service, but I didn't find out until this Monday.

If you need anything and I mean anything please don't hesitate to ask.

Maricela said...

Sorry I forgot to put my name on the previous comment....

I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

XOXO

Anonymous said...

I'm so amazed by your grace through all of this. Thank you for keeping in touch.

Anonymous said...

You have such amazing perspective in the midst of such a hard time. I will continue to pray for peace and healing for you and your family. God is big and he knew that Jack would deeply touch so many of us in his short life. I will continue to remember him. Thank you so much for sharing again with us of his amazing journey.

laurel (nestie laurelpea)

Anonymous said...

Megan, I've been checking your blog ever since you wrote of Jack's passing, and I would have totally understood if you never posted anything again. But I'm so glad you did. Thank you for sharing the story of the last few days, of the amazing and incredible ways that you, your family, friends and community have honored your son. Jack certainly deserved every bit of it. God bless this beautiful angel who has taught us all so much in his short time on earth. I personally feel comforted to have him as an angel looking out for us all, though my heart aches for you and your husband.

Today is my 29th birthday and I really think that I will forever be changed by reading your post - I will never look at life the same way again. Thank you for this precious gift - and thank sweet Jack. (((hugs)))

Anonymous said...

Megan ~ Wow, your strength, love, compassion, faith, everything amazes me. If I am ever one tenth of as strong as a woman that you are, I will be superwoman.

Jack is truly missed by hundreds and hundreds of people and you are right, he has touched SO, SO, SO many lives. I am so sorry for your loss and always wish the best for you and your family. God Bless You.

jul4365oh said...

Yet another of your posts that left me breathless. What a gift God gave you in that little boy, even if it was only for a short time. His story has touched so many lives, and he will never be forgotten. Thank you for sharing him with the rest of the world, and may you find some peace knowing there is now a wonderful, healthy angel above us. God bless you, PJ, Katie and Charlotte.

julieua said...

I just came across your blog through the nest and am crying as I sit here holding my own little guy. You are an amazing person and mother. Jack is so lucky to be part of your family. I love the image of him smiling in his mirror. What a great moment! Kind regards and god bless.

ldybugsuzi said...

what an amazing tribute from such an amazing mom. your & lil Jack's story has truely touched me & I'm sure so many others. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

Megan, this is such a beautiful tribute to your son.... I honestly am crying at my desk. You are so strong and I look up to you! You amaze me!

((hugs))
Dibsgirl

Cibele said...

I am a first time reader... Your boy touched me as well. He so deserves to be a firefighter. My heart goes out to you my dear and your pain makes my heart ache. I am so happy to read that you did not lose your faith, and yes, you will she him again. I am so sorry and wish you God's comfort for you, your husband and all your family
Hugs

jes said...

Wow. I just found your blog through the Nest. I don't have any children yet so I've never experienced that different kind of love that you can only have for your children but your story truly touched my heart. You and your family will be in my thoughts. Rest in peace sweet little Jack.

lifefromhere said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. May you always feel the blessings he bestows on your family. wishing you all continued peace and healing. ~luna

Anonymous said...

I am very sorry for your loss. I was sent a link to you blog by a nestie friend. I realize you live in my town which really made it hit home. I wish you the best of luck. God Bless you and your little ones.

Jennifer said...

Goodbye Jack...you will always be loved!

((hugs))

Amanda said...

Megan, you don't know me, but I have been keeping up with little Jack and your girls via the Nest. Reading your beautiful words about his funeral service really touched my heart and I wanted to let you know that there are people everywhere praying for your family. You, your husband and your children are such an inspiration to all of us. God Bless you.

Anonymous said...

I am just so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine having to go to your own child's funeral. I never want to go through what you went through, but I must say that I am truly envious of your strength and bravery during this time. Your three little munchkins are SO lucky to have you as their Mommy. I'm not sure I could have been able to handle it with as much grace.

Please believe that you will see Jack again. I know you will. He is with God and no longer has any pain. He was and always will be your beautiful little boy, Jack.

Future Sgts Wife said...

Meg, you are such an amazing woman. An amazing mother. You put your heart and soul out there so eloquently - through the immeasurable pain, you found time to teach us. Your words touch me so deeply - and that will always show the impact sweet baby Jack had on me. I think of you daily.... and know that Jack's memory will live on forever thru so many of us. Stay strong...
Lisa

Olsentobe said...

Megan,
You truly are an amazing person. Your baby boy touched so many people! I am sitting here crying my eyes out! What an inspiration you and little Jck have become to me and my family! I continue to keep you and your family in my prayers!!!!

Nicole

Christine & Aaron said...

I too am touched by your journey. Reading your thoughts and feelings touches my soul so deeply. I pray you keep finding peace within and never let go of all the wonderful blessings you have and will continue to have. I will keep you in my prayers...

p.s I am so impressed that you baby Jack "got all that" at his service...that is amazing....and it was all for Jack.
God Bless,
Christine

Anonymous said...

You described such an incredibly beautiful scene--a wonderful tribute to Jack's life. He has opened the way for so many blessings for so many people near and far from you and your family. Please don't worry that he will ever be forgotten by us. And one last thing--I'm so glad to hear that your faith is renewed. When I read that you had lost faith earlier, I was heartbroken, though I understood on some level. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Carolyn (Mrs.cbcg)

mommiebear2 said...

I am readin, I just wanted to say - I cant say much right now but just know I am here.

dinkey said...

Megan...I am so sorry about Jack. He was so very loved by people he never met. My heart aches for you and your family. Just know how many people truly care. I am one of them.

Hekateris said...

I'm so sorry for you loss.

Michell said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

Harris Boys said...

Megan, once again you amaze me with how strong you are. I've followed your blog, even though I don't know you, Jack has touched me in a way I can only say thank you!! May God ease your pain and hold Jack in your hearts forever. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Take care and know everyone around the US has been praying for your family.

Jayme (close2it on the nest) said...

I was touched to read about Jack's funeral...what an beautiful tribute to a wonderful little boy. Your strength continues to amaze and inspire me! Thoughts and prayers remain with you and your family.

casicola-luckyme said...

What a beautiful story. He deserved all that and more. You are so strong. I have to say that a friend showed me your blog about a week ago and I am so grateful because I feel that your family has given me so much strength...so thanks:)

lori said...

ooooooooooooh, my heart is broken for you. i am so sorry that your beautiful little boy has gone on to be with God.

i'm wishing you, your DH, and your beautiful little girls all the peace and love in the world.

Amy said...

I stumbled across this website tonight and now I'm in complete tears... God bless your sweet family. Your writing is amazing, you are able to convey so many emotions so easily. I am so, so, so sorry this happened, and I am saying prayers for your family. I feel so inspired by reading about Jack's life.

Millicent said...

I am glad that all theses comments and posts have somehow helped. I have been reading your blog for about a month and was praying so hard for Jack. My heart sank when I read your last post. I felt so helpless. It is nice to know my words along with the others can make a difference. I live half a world away in Australia. Yet I think about Jack almost everyday. He a truly special little boy. And I think God chose you to be his Mommy because not only are you exceptionally strong, but you posessed the ability to write so eloquently and share his story with the world. Without your skills, his story would never have been known to such a wide range of people. With out your strength and selflessness to be willing to share his story, his impact wouldn't have been as great. You have an amazing son. But don't forget he came from an amazing woman. You have both touched my heart in a way I cannot express. My life is different thanks to you. I pray that both you and PJ and your girls go on to lead very blessed lives. You most definitely deserve it. With Jack watching over you, how can you not?

Anonymous said...

That was truly a beautiful tribute to what must be a beautiful soul. I know you will be with him again and be able to raise him in Heaven.

I have a family here on Earth. They are so good to me. I want to share my life with them through all eternity. Families can be together forever. Through Heavenly Father's plan. I always want to be with my own family. And the Lord has shown me how I can. The Lord has shown me how I can.

Your sweet angel baby has touched so many. Thank you for sharing him with us.

meechrobi said...

I do not know you...and I will never meet you, but I have to tell you that your tribute to Jack touched me so deeply! I am so sorry for your loss. I can not imagine how unbelievably hard and heart wrenching this must be for you and your family. I pray that I may have an opportunity to give life to a child some day and experience just a touch of level of love that Jack brought to you in your life-- even if just for such a short time!
Jack, you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!

Bea said...

I've only just found out about Jack, and have been reading a little of the story. I'm so sorry he's left, but I'm glad he was ready.

Bea

Javi said...

i don't know you (found your site via the nest) and feel the immense LOVE in this blog. thank you for sharing your story with us...you are blessed to have spent time with that angel. praying that you continue to be blessed, strong and filled with love.

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