It has been a really really hard few days but I am feeling better tonight. Jack looked so great today, feisty and chubby, and he more than anything was what made me get it together a little. He just looked so sweet and not sick, I can't even explain it. He actually was so full of energy he pulled his breathing tube out last night.... not good. So he was totally pinned down today, poor guy.
We are ready for this. They may transer him down today (Monday) and PJ and I are both hoping that's what happens - the waiting only prolongs the torture. Right now the thing that is really the most upsetting are the 'ideas' the doctors have been throwing around about what might be wrong with Jack. I won't even write them out here because it's too scary to me and I feel that it will somehow make them true, but they are terrible diseases, life long debilitating problems. I have forced myself to not look them up online because i know I will not only convince myself that he has them, but it will then absolutely send me over the edge.
Thank you again - I realize more than ever how truly blessed we are with all the support and love we have. Jack has so many people who love him, it is amazing.
I'll end with, of course, baby pictures. Today is the babies 1 month birthday. I took some pics of the girls - unfortunately, they didn't want to wake up for them, but I tried. Every month I want to take photos of them with these bears. Jack will hopefully be home, healthy and smiling in next month's.
Katie in Blue, Charlotte in Pink:
Tired out from all the picture taking: