I'm always asking for something, it seems.
I originally started this post to ask you to please, please vote for my blog (over and over... you can vote as many times as you want). I'm nominated on the Bump for Best Multiples Mommy Blog, and I'm up against some really really good blogs, written by amazing women who I know and like. It's really exciting! That said - I want to win!! It has really good prizes.... I would love the $1,000, man, could we use that....
Best Multiples Blog: The Finalists
Then I remembered, today is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. If you could, please light a candle at 7pm for all the babies lost, all the families out there who remember every single day, will never forget for even a moment the baby they lost.
I read a lot of blogs, I'm a junkie. And there a few that I just adore, they are 'friends in my head' as Wendy Williams would say. I realized that these blogs are all very different but all have one common thread - they are all written by women who've lost a child. It's a club we're all in, that no one would ever ask to join. But I thank God for the other women in it, who understand.
The writings of Kate especially some days seems to come straight out of my head. It's like she is able to see inside, to what I'm thinking, put all my jumbled craziness down on paper far more eloquently than I'm ever able to. The site Glow in the Woods is also the most amazing, amazing place, the most honest, painful, raw, beautiful words you can ever imagine reading on the loss of a child.
Today, on this day of remembering, if you want to understand a little bit better what it's like to walk in these shoes every day, read this. Please. When I won the Best Writing Award a couple weeks ago, or when someone leaves a note saying they think I write well, the first thing I think of is Kate and almost feel embarrassed. Read and see, see what truly incredible writing is really like.
So thank you for remembering my Jack today, and please, remember Abigail, and Spencer, and Ames, and Maddie, and the Doodles, and Matteo, and Annaleigh, and Liam and Sydney and Carynne and so so many other sweet babies who've been lost.
And the saddest part of today for me was realizing how since last year, that list has grown so much longer.