Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Three Years

Today I have been married three years. It seems much longer, honestly... it feels like we've always been together. I think the last year could have easily torn us apart, but I feel like it has brought us closer together (not that we didn't have our moments.) I am so lucky to have a really wonderful husband, who is an even better dad.

Our wedding was PERFECT, seriously, it was a great day. I got to live out all my little girl dreams of the big poofy dress, the tiara and the handsome husband. I loved it.




Our anniversaries though, have generally been really really really TERRIBLE.

My brother got married the day before our First Anniversary, and while that was a great day and we had a really good time, it meant that on our anniversary we were really tired (okay and hungover) and did absolutely nothing. I ate our frozen wedding cake, we watched the DVD of our wedding ceremony and were both asleep by 10pm.

At my brother's wedding 11/24/06. We look so... worry free!! LOL



The day before our second anniversary was absolutely one of the worst if not the worst day of my life. It was the day Jack's breathing tube came out and they couldn't get it back in. It was the day we almost lost him and realized that eventually, we probably were going to lose him. It was a day that I still have nightmares about. I don't think we even realized the next day was our anniversary, we were still so numb.

11/25/07, Second Anniversary. Better than the day before, at least.



This year, the day before our anniversary, aka yesterday... my purse was stolen. My pretty little Coach bag with bank cards, credit cards, insurance cards, my driver's license, $100 in cash, $100 Visa Gift Card, all inside. Gone. I had it, I used it in the Gap, and then not 15 minutes later, when I went to leave, it was gone, out of my diaper bag.

It also had in it the St. Gerard Medal I've carried around for almost 2 years, through IVF, through a triplet pregnancy, through Jack's illness and death, through everything.

I know there was a Prayer Card from Jack's funeral in there too, as I always carry one. I hope whoever took it sees the card and feels something.... I don't even know what. Someone said I should pray for the person that stole it, they obviously need more help than I do, and they're right I guess. I hope whatever it was they needed so badly, they got it.

Today we did nothing - had tacos for dinner and watched The Biggest Loser. I did get beautiful flowers from my husband, and we are going out to dinner Saturday night. I just keep telling myself, nothing can be worse than last year. Even after my bag was stolen, while I was standing there waiting for the police to come with two crying hungry tired babies who wanted to go home, I kept saying, November 24th of last year was so much worse... it will be okay. When you've been to hell nothing else seems that bad.

Thank you to everyone for the HUGE response to Jack's Toy Drive! It is so exciting how many people have sent toys already from the Amazon Wishlist, posted it on their Facebook page, posted about it on their blogs..... thank you thank you, so much. This is what started it all for us, the Christmas Toys for Jack, this is what means the most to us. I know Evan's awesome toy drive inspired PJ's cousin to start this one and it just feels so perfect. I know Jack is watching, helping, and smiling.

19 comments:

rachael said...

happy anniversary!

i am so sorry your purse was stolen, that really stinks! i hope that somehow, someway it is returned to you!

BoufMom9 said...

happy Anniversary!
I came over from Rachael's blog after she posted about jack's Toy drive. Will certainly take a look at it and hopefully donate some toys :)
It's wonderful what you are doing.

Beth said...

I'm sorry to hear about your purse!

I think the toy drive is such a wonderful idea. I just ordered a special book through Amazon. It's on it's way...

Jody said...

Happy anniversary! I didn't realize that we got married the same year.

I'm sorry about the purse. But, I hope that things can only go up from here.

Lotta said...

I'm sorry you had your special things taken from you. Could it be some odd sign from Jack to let go of some of the grief? Maybe you should put some memories of Jack in your new purse that make you happy when you touch or look at them?

Or maybe it was just a crap day eh? Either way I'm sorry and wish I could give you a hug.

Mountain Girl said...

Happy Anniversary!

Sorry to hear about your purse - that is a real bummer.

Your wedding pictures are beautiful!

I am sure Jack is watching over ya'll. What a cutie, he was.

Pam said...

ooooh, beautiful bride! (and beautiful mama, now.) that truly sucks about your purse. someone is going to have VERY bad karma or something. hmmph. jerk!!!

proudmama02 said...

I'm sorry to hear about your purse - that really stinks. Hope your anniversaries get better from now on!

That is so nice of you to say that Evan's toy drive helped inspire this one. We were so glad to be able to contribute (the Amazon wish list was a fantastic idea!!).

Anonymous said...

Happy 3 years!

TBG said...

Happy Anniversary. I am sorry your anniversary's have sucked. My girlfriend got her bags stolen in the Gap last week. Ridiculous.

Sarah said...

It is very insightful that the thief might need more than you do at this particular moment. However, I tend to always be short on insight, so while I do not begrudge their need, I am really hoping that Jack will cause them some little annoying payback (nothing major - a flat tire in the rain sort of deal). After all, mischief is what little boys are all about, right?

Rebecca Nixie said...

Happy Anniversary!! Your wedding pictures are beautiful!! I wish you many more anniversaries, but hope they get better and you can enjoy them!! May the thief who stole your purse find the prayer card and have a guilty conscience.Maybe it will be enough for them to return your bag.

Anonymous said...

Did you change your header?!? It looks beautiful. Gorgeous wedding pictures. Happy anniversary; I hope they keep getting better!

Allison said...

People are animals...truly. What a fu*knut! I've had my wallet stolen too and it's just the biggest pain in the ass to deal with. I really hope that the person does see Jack's masscard and feel like the biggest d*ckhead on the planet.

Happy Thanksgiving!!! LOL.

Anonymous said...

My my, what shiny shiny shoes PJ has! Happy anniversary and best wishes for better years to come with your beautiful girls. I hope whoever took your purse gets a conscience when they see Jack's card. And if not, there's always karma... :)
Gorgeous header.

Susie Korbel said...

November 25th is my birthday. I'm pleased to share a special day with you. I hope it becomes more special for you in the future.

Sorry about your purse. It's sad.

Anonymous said...

Each of these things happened the day before your anniversary. Perhaps it has always been Jack's intention that NOTHING happens on your actual day, and that his spirit was with you from the beginning, on your most beautiful and happy day, your wedding day, watching you, and guiding you. He has always been connected to you, and will always be connected to you, he just couldn't watch over you the way he needed to, here on earth. And maybe, when that thief finds his card, he'll touch that person in a way that changes them as well. That would be another step in Jack's legacy.

tbonegrl said...

happy anniversary and I am just so sorry about the purse.

harp said...

Happy belated 3-year anniversary Megan. You were such a BEAUTIFUL bride, Classic and timeless! So sorry to hear about your purse being stolen,but you definitely have the right attitude. Also, although I rarely post, I often think about you and pray for you and your family and remember Jack...

Lyra (lyradelmar from the Nest)