I don't think I can.
So many people said the the day must have been 'bittersweet' for us. I think that is the right word to describe the day, though it was definitely more sweet than bitter. October 11, 2007 was an unbelievably HAPPY day - PJ says it was the best day of his life. It's the day we met our three babies and for that day, at least, believed they were all okay, and would all be healthy and home with us soon. It will always be a wonderful day. And we will always think of Jack, and it will always be his birth-day too, always.
Miss Charlotte on October 11, 2007 and 2008
I think the party was a success. The girls were definitely princesses! Charlotte was a social butterfly, going from table to table, visiting with all her friends ... Katie, my sweet Katie who loves everyone, was a little overwhelmed. She was very shy and clingy, which is unusual for her - but I think it was just a little too much for her. She warmed up by the end of the party though and had a good time. They got lots of wonderful gifts, and even more importantly lots of LOVE from everyone who came.
On our way to the party, at the stop light right before the restaurant, we saw a butterfly flitting around the little grassy median. PJ and I both said, HI Jack. I said, come to the party Jack. We have cupcakes!
(guess who LOVED the cupcake and who did not?)
It was the perfect first birthday for two perfect girls. But yes, bittersweet. So bittersweet. Jack, we missed you, every minute. Like always.
And also, today, please remember all our lost babies.