Saturday, September 27, 2008

The Big Day

Jack's Golf Tournament is Monday - I can't believe it! It came so fast. I'm praying the weather is nice, and it all goes well. I am starting to get excited for it, I think it's going to be a lot of fun, but I'm still nervous - hopefully it will all go smoothly!

I think the golf outing being so close has made me think of Jack even more, if that's possible. That combined with the babies rapidly approaching birthday. I can't help but think of this time last year, think of their birth, the days after, weeks after, months after.

I miss him so much. I'm back in the place where I can't even talk about him without crying, I mean can't even say his name without starting to tear up. I don't want that - I want to be able to talk about Jack. It's just hard right now. It all feels so fresh again. I keep thinking how a year ago I could never, never have imagined what lay ahead for us.

Between the golf tournament, the girl's upcoming birthday party and a million other things, life has been pretty crazy this past week. On top of it all, the girls have been snotty, grumpy messes with bad colds. Proof of snottiness (and grumpiness):



They seem to be feeling a little better, finally, but it's been a looooong looooooooong week for all three of us. Last weekend we had lots of fun though - apple picking! I've already made a huge apple cake (which of course no one is eating but ME...oink oink):



And going to the zoo!



(The first picture cracks me up... notice the bear in the background, and Katie's expression... like she's saying What?? What's behind me? A WHAT? lol)

Anyway.... maybe on Monday, if you think of it, send a good thought to Jack. I know the point of the tournament is to raise money to help other children and families, but I feel in my heart like it's Jack's day. The incredible outpouring of love and help and donations and everything are a tribute to Jack, and how amazing he was. Monday is for him, my sweet baby. I know he'll be there with us - I keep telling him, bring us some sun Jack!!

I will report back with all the details and lots of pictures!

20 comments:

Amy (MyColonyNJ) said...

Good Luck on Monday - please let me know if you need ANYTHING

Amy

Anonymous said...

I will be thinking of you guys tomorrow.
-LeighAnn&Vinny (nj nestie)

Gwen said...

Good luck at the tournament, I will be thinking of you and Jack. (although, honestly, I think of Jack pretty much EVERY day)

Sommer said...

Lots of great weather vibes and i will def think about jack. Hopefully one day you can get to the point where you can think of jack and not cry. It will take time. But there is so much Joy jack has given you and the rest of your family. This is only the beginning! :)

Anonymous said...

Missing and loving your Jack - today and every day.
Hugs moi xxxx

Rebecca Nixie said...

I think of you often, I think more than I don't. Extra thoughts to you and your family on Monday. Think SUNSHINE!!!

Linda said...

It will be his special day Megan. He is an angel, and will do so much for so many. Good luck. I'm sure it will all go well.

Anonymous said...

I am also a NJ Nestie who has followed your story since the beginning. I hope today is a beautiful day for your family and I know Jack will be there with all of you. I want you to know that Jack has inspired me to be a better mom to my son...Can't wait to hear how the tournament went!

BuckeyeBundle said...

Thinking off all of you today on Jack's day! :) Can't wait to hear all about the tournament.

The Nicolaides Family said...

Just wanted to let you know that you have lots of people thinking of you on this very special day! It is very much Jack's Day.

Anonymous said...

Hope you have a great day today! Rain or shine I'm sure it will be amazing because it's Jack's day.
God bless.

leona said...

Hope you have a great day today!

Rachel said...

Praying for sunshine for Jack's Day! I hope you have a wonderful day!

Michelle said...

Megan, I have to agree with "annonymous", "Rain or shine, it will be amazing because it is Jack's day!" I can't wait to see and hear all about it! What a wonderful momma Charlotte, Katie, and Jack have. Today's tournament is a great thing y'all are doing!I continue to lift you up in prayer. God Bless!

KK said...

Good luck today!!!

Michael, Karen, Morgan, J.D. & Levi said...

Prayers continue to be lifted for your sweet Jack! I hope the weather held out and everyone enjoyed Jack's Special Day. I know he was there with you. His spirit is alive in all of you forever.

Blessings, Strength and Joy to you and your family during this very special time of remembrance.

All Adither said...

Hope it went well for you today.

Jody said...

Thinking of you today!

mommy2twinkies-Deb said...

I just want to let you know that I tagged for a MeMe.

Marie said...

hang in there megan. im sure its so hard. i wish i could say something to make it easier. good luck on monday. i hope you enjoy the day and i wish we where better off financially right now so i could donate. what your doing is wonderful