Monday, November 26, 2007

Numb

I think we're all kind of numb today. It's almost like the weekend was just some sort of bad dream. Numb can be kind of good though..... I can use a little numb.

I called and checked on Jack a couple times today, and he's doing well. His blood gases were good (really important regarding his lung function) so they lowered his vent settings a little. They also started giving him some food again. They were keeping him on the morphine though because he seemed to still be in some pain, and when he would wake up he was very agitated, wanting to pull the tube out. I don't care if they have to pin his hands down, that tube MUST NOT come out. So all in all, he's doing okay. We still don't know if any damage was done by the whole thing on Saturday but so far it's looking hopeful. Thank you so much to everyone for their prayers and kind words. They really really do help.

The parents of the baby behind Jack were there for the whole thing on Saturday - I actually felt bad for them, it had to be pretty traumatic for them as well. The mom came over and asked me my baby's name, and I told her it was Jack. She said "I'm only asking because I want to pray for him." It was very sweet and considering they have a sick baby of their own at CHOP, really really kind of her. Sunday she came over to us and told us that her whole church had prayed for him that morning. Then she said that she and her husband had both been praying for Jack separately, and had both felt God say he was going to be okay.

She seems to have a better line to God than I do lately... my calls keep going unanswered. Seriously, I hope she is right. I can't even begin to think of all the prayers going up to heaven for Jack the last couple weeks. My hope is God answers them if for no other reason than to get some peace and quiet. :)

I do have so much to be thankful for, my three sweet babies especially, but also my amazing husband, my family that has literally carried us through this, watching the girls, paying for our hotel rooms, even feeding my poor Leroy. All the friends who offer any kind of help I could possibly need, the friends here who offer so much hope and support. I can't imagine going through this alone. We are all so lucky.

My babies. See, I am lucky:

Katie in her Thanksgiving outfit (looking thrilled...)



Charlotte in her Turkey Day finery:



Later that night, more T-Day clothes -Katie on left, Charlotte on the right (puking):



Katie:



Charlotte:



And from Friday, Jack:


19 comments:

The Hyperfertile Infertile said...

I'm so glad to hear that Jack was hanging in there today. I've been thinking of you guys a lot today.

Katie and Charlotte are absolutely adorable, they are starting to chub up, it's so cute.

MC said...

Charlotte definitely has that "Enough with the paparazzi!" look going there! I love those wrinkly-faced looks that babies get on their faces, and she seems to have it down to a science!

Still praying for you all and especially for Jack.

Anonymous said...

I pray every day for Jack. Great name by the way....I have a Jack that is 11 months old. Everytime I look at him, my heart breaks for you. You and your whole family are in my thoughts and prayers. I stay home with him and he comes everywhere with me, so if you need ANYTHING, please please let me know. I really feel like I want to do something. My mom has also been following your story and asks me about you constantly. You are in so many peoples prayers. That has to mean something...take comfort in that. Take care!
Jen
(jenjen813)

Leah said...

I just caught up with everything, and I'm so sorry that you had to go through this. It is good to hear that he is doing better, and that they were able to turn the vent down.

Matt and I are praying for all of you, especially Jack.

On another note, the girls are too cute in those outfits :-) It definitely is getting harder to tell them apart!

((Hug))

Kristen said...

Megan,
I was away for the weekend and was just catching up and I am so sorry that You, PJ, Katie, Charlotte and JACK had to go through everything you did on Saturday. My heart is begging God to answer your prayers, and I am still trying to will Jack to breath. I am so sorry that you have to go through all of this and your continued strength is amazing. GOD BLESS you and your family. I hope and pray that you can be a complete family of FIVE soon. many continued prayers to your family!
and BREATH JACK, JUST BREATH FOR MOMMY, DADDY, KATIE and CHARLOTTE, they need you to breath and come home.
Kristen(kristen8/16/03)

Jen, butterbrickle said...

We don't know each other, as I just came over to the Nest in September, but have been viewing your blog during this time because I found it so interesting! I looove the pics you post of your babies, they are all so beautiful. Your family is in my my thoughts and prayers.

Melissa said...

I'm glad Jack is continuing to fight! That little man will be home before you know it, joining those adorable sisters of his.

As always, you are in our thoughts.

Can't wait to see you on Thursday and hold those beautiful girls again!

Ali & Dave said...

There are so many prayers for Jack, you, PJ and the girls God is going to be tired of hearing from all of us soon enough and make Jack well :)

My grandmother passed last month and I talk to her every night. I tell her about your babies and I know she is watching over them. She was very close to Mary while she was here and I just know she is even closer now. So I'll continue to pray to Mary and Grandma Rosie for you all.

Stay strong. You are an amazing woman. I just don't know how you do it....

Ali
Dec2005bride

Adrienne said...

So glad to hear that Jack is doing okay. I think of you guys all the time and will continue to keep you in my prayers.

The girls are just gorgeous!
MrsAdrienneT

Anonymous said...

Jack is always in my thoughts, especially when I'm holding my Julia. I pray for Jack and for you, PJ, Katie, and Charlotte! Have you looked into Ronald McDonald house? My cousin stayed in the one in Baltimore this summer and fall while her son was in the NICU at UMD and it was really good, especially since all the families created a support network together and helped each other through! Laura/penguingrrl

Anonymous said...

OMG Megan! I just LOL'ed at your three little babies' pictures!!!! SOOOOOOO CUTE AND PRECIOUS!!!!!! I am thinking and praying for Jack. Believe what the woman told you, Jack is going to be okay. I really feel that. You are such a positive wonderful person, don't lose hope.

With love,

Kathleen aka Mrs.Scher

Gillian said...

So glad Jack seems like he's heading uphill.. I'm sending only good thoughts, wishes and vibes.. I hope we start to annoy God too ;-)
-Gillian

The Hyperfertile Infertile said...

This is random, but I dreamt about your babies last night. There were three carseats and they all had blankets kind of over their faces, and then you pulled back one blanket to show me Jack's face... he was all chubby and plump, maybe 6 months old?

Anyway, it was a nice dream so I thought I'd share. For what it's worth, Camden was also down for some time when he crashed. All babies are different, but he didn't suffer any long-term impacts.

Anonymous said...

Megan - I'm praying everyday for Jack and for you and PJ's strength. I can't imagine how torn you feel leaving the girls to see Jack and vice versa. Jack is a fighter and I know he will pull through this in his own time. Please let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do at all.

PS - you guys made such beautiful babies. The girls look amazing and are getting so big.

Kathy

Alicia said...

Megan,
I hope you know you are all in my prayers. What a sweet story from the other mom, i hope you know there must be thousands of prayers going up each and everyday for your family and esp Jack. I hope Katie and Charlotte are keeping you happy and busy! They certainly are very cute =)

Anonymous said...

Hi Megan! I was attempting to park my car in front of my school and looked to see if a certain lot was open and it was the lot for CHOP. I knew my school was close but I am literally 2 seconds away. I go to school Mondays and Wednesday. If you ever need anything-lunch, whatever, please please let me know. I always read my husband your blogs and he is also thinking and praying for your family. {{{{HUGS}}}}

-Kathleen aka Mrs.Scher

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry Jack is still struggling. You guys are in our prayers.
Kimberly and the GA Guinn Trips
www.guinnfamilyhome.com

Alyson said...

Thinking of your entire family and sending you lots of {{{positive vibes}}}. Mrs.Aly&Mr.Jim

Anonymous said...

I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and praying for you, Jack, and your family. One of the girls from the nest multiples board posted a link to your blog yesterday. When I lost one of my triplets during my pregnancy, you posted a kind and thoughtful reply and I appreciated it so much. I can not imagine the fear you are experienceing right now. I am glad you have such a wonderful husband and family helping you as well. I'm saying lots of prayers for Jack. And sending a big hug to you.
MrsFinny (from the nest multiples)